What a difference a year makes. Last year today we found out Molly was EGFR positive, and filled her first prescription of Tarceva, this month we radiated last of Molly’s tumors. Last year nobody knew who we were, today we get recognized on the street.
My friends know I hate every reality show. Seriously, why would you want your private lives shown to thousands of people? So why would we agree to have our lives filmed for a year especially during stressful times like scan results? Because somebody had to put a different face to Lung Cancer. Liza our producer recognized the opportunity and our oncologist picked us because we could help change the perception.
Molly once said that she is jealous of breast cancer patients because people sympathize with them, LC patients get the “did you smoke?” look. Why is it insensitive to ask someone if they ate fatty food after a heart attack, but it’s OK to ask a LC patient if they smoked?
Several people have asked me how I felt about the documentary. I thought it was brilliantly done and don’t think any other documentary like it exists for Lung Cancer. Was it easy for me to watch? No, It was very hard. This is my family, it killed me to watch my nine year old daughter talk about how she is always worried about her mom. We knew this was going to be hard but went ahead anyway. Why did we do it? I will leave you with the following from Rabbi Israel Salanter:
“When I was a young man, I wanted to change the world.
I found it was difficult to change the world, so I tried to change my nation.
When I found I couldn’t change the nation, I began to focus on my town.
I couldn’t change the town and as an older man, I tried to change my family.
Now, as an old man, I realize the only thing I can change is myself, and suddenly I realize that if long ago I had changed myself, I could have made an impact on my family.
My family and I could have made an impact on our town.
Their impact could have changed the nation and I could indeed have changed the world.”